The 14th of september, we woke up early to finish every preparation, but as usual, we couldn’t start the event at the right time, we were late. But that’s not a big deal anyway, many participants of the competition were late that day. The main problem is a technical problem that I don’t want to write about in here. Now about the competition itself, you might want to see the poster of SMC itself.
A nice poster, ain’t it? Next year, I’ll be the steering committee of that event and I hope I can make the event way better than our senior, so they will be proud of us. That day, we used almost every space in the school as the competition zone, including the field, we made a large canopy there. I didn’t really do anything that day, I am really tired that I can’t help and took another another sleep at the afternoon, after I met my friend from Smala and I failed a talent test for a sister school program in Korea. Yeah, that day was infuriating because of that talent test, I don’t have any talent so I just tried to sing and I think made a mistake when I sing. Back to the story line, after some sleep, I woke up when the competition about to end, and I helped a bit, had some lunch, and do many more random activities. Finally, when the competition finished, I obtained a certificate for being a committee of SMC. Well, that made my day. At the evening, some of us go home, while some stay at school to prepare for the tabligh akbar, I was one of those who stayed at school again that day, we played with cottons and matches then we prepare everything for the next day. Just like the day before. I was still infuriated by the audition back then.
Back then at Friday 13th of this month and this year, everything in the school was really ordinary, I still can’t find a meeting point with guys in my class, I just don’t want to be like them so I keep distance. The special thing about that day is: It’s one day before the SMC and the committees, that means me too, would stay at the school until the SMC. I’m really excited, that was the third time I stayed at my high school, I did it twice before, it was before the idul adha and before the Smada fair. What’s so special about staying at the school? well, actually, It’s even worse than in my home. Mosquitos everywhere, no bed, few bathrooms, to put it simply; the facilities are not good. But what can I say anyway? It’s a school, not a hotel. What makes me happy is the fact that there are my friends here, that one simple fact makes me happy to stay at school. Back to the storyline, at the evening of that day, I painted some boards, I took some pre-ordered foods from the sponsor of SMC with a senior, I danced caesar dance with some friends, I helped many people. Then at the night of that day, I and my friends strolled around the school because of curiosity. I somehow had fun back then. Then some of us sleep at the midnight, while some more stay awake all night long to finish their task, everyone worked so hard. I didn’t know when did I fallen asleep, but it was a short sleep. I really hope the event won’t turn us down.
Last thursday was a really busy day. I should’ve studied in school as usual, but I and my frien, Randy Putra Resha, a friend of mine from SKI anf 10th grade, was in Surabaya departement of religion. There was some socialization about zakat, waqaf, infaq, etc. The socialization was exciting, but then, after the socialization, there was also a motivation by a different speaker, a brown-skinned energic oldman. He graduated from SMAN 6 Surabaya, and now he’s actively motivating teenagers in Indonesia to believe in God and achieve their dreams. He’s very humorous, all of us laughed and having fun back then. To put it simply, the motivation was even more exciting than the socialization itself. After the motivation finished, the committee gave all of us a box of lunch and fifty thousand rupiahs, makes us even happier. Afterwards, we returned to school, and both of us were given another task, Randy have to transport our Bahasa Indonesia teacher, Mrs. Naning, I don’t remember where he have to transport her to. While I have to transport our religion teacher, Mrs. Rus, to East Java departement of religion. Well, we both did our task, and when we return to school again, the school is about to over, so we just waited until the school is over and go home, we didn’t even study that day, but we’ve gained some happy experiences. What a busy yet fun day.
I think I’ll have to summarize everything that had happened this week into one post; this post itself. I’ve been so busy lately with the preparations of SMC, the election of the next leader of OSIS, homeworks and tests. I still able to maintain my performances and scores well, but I have no time for my own happiness lately, in other words; I’m in a bad mood. Especially because of the pressure I had in the class. You know, bullies from classmates, senior and teacher’s bad opinion about my class and many more. I know it is our fault, I’ve tried my best to balance the scale, but many boys in my class did the reverse. They sleep in the class, skip class, harassing the teacher in the class and many more. Makes all my hard work gone to waste, makes me think that entering social class is the wrong choice. Well they actually just have a different vision, they define ‘breaking rules’ as ‘have fun’ and their scale of ‘enjoy life’ is in a way higher stage than me, they party hard but work less. Well, not all of them but some of they are. Somehow, today I took a very risky way to make them realize that they live not only as a teenager but also as a student. I hope that I don’t have to do that again. It’s just very horrible to think I’ve said such bad words that might hurt the feelings of other people, but I have to. Later on, It’s nice that my friends in SKI always makes me smile again before I go home. It just felt good to talk to those who have been spiritually stabilized. Now, while currently typing this post, I also watch several movies; Wreck-it Ralph, How To Train Your Dragon, and Johnny English. These movies managed to make my mood better again. What again? Oh, the election of best three candidates of OSIS leader is today, I really hope everything will go as we planned. Last but not least, I really hope that God will strengthen me in every problems in my life, because there’s already many problems in my life and I’m starting to think that I can’t handle some problems anymore.
Today, I’ve experienced another unforgettable experience back then in the school. Today is the election day of MPK leader. I am one of the eight candidates of MPK leader. We were given some tasks and we will have to speech in front of MPK fraction, the current MPK, OSIS, and teachers before we will finally being voted. I was so nervous, It’s just unusual, I usually am an improvisative person, but the tense inside the hall, where we must conduct our speech, was really tense. From eight candidates, I was the fifth speecher. I really am nervous that I forget to mention something about my powers and weaknesses, but thankfully I can still finish my speech well. After I walk out of the hall, I felt really happy. After all eight of us have performed our speech, we were told to wait for the vote result in front of the hall door. Next, all eight of us walk in to the hall to see the result; Salsabilla Maghfirani was chosen to be the leader of MPK. She has the rights to decide our position in MPK. I was chosen as the leader of A commission, and I was really happy. I just think that this position in MPK suits me the best. More else, the vice leader was Ardiansyah Rendi, the treasurer was Putu Widhi, the secretary was Marcella Pavita, the leader of B commission was Chaidar Shofi, the leader of C commission was Fatma Dora, and the leader of D commission was Ferry Yundiarto. We all hope we can run MPK better this year.
The task that I’ve been working on all night long since yesterday is not finished yet. I really am sleepy in the school today and teachers just gave me more tasks to finish. But somehow, I’m not unhappy and at the same time I’m not happy too, I’m in the state of equilibrium mood. I just simply do things as usual, as my spiritful self. Especially in that japanese class back then, It’s all because I simply love japanese and I’ll go the extra miles to become a really good japanese speaker, to fulfill my dream of studying in Japan, just as my father did. The last lesson in class was the language of Indonesia. After that, I go home with my automatic motorcycle. As soon as I’m home, just when I need them, my mother prepared “risoles” and ginger water for me, you can see those in the picture, I simply can’t thank her enough for everything she did to me, but I’ll type it here; thanks mom, I love you. Next, I eat those “risoles” and drink some ginger water peacefully. I was about to smile when I remembered that I’ll have to finish my task right after this, then I cancelled my smile, because today is really an equilibrium day.
Tonight I’ve got so many task from school that I have to stay awake all night long to finish these tasks. Some of these tasks supposed to be a team task, but somehow I’m working it all alone thanks to those lazy guys who’ve been luckily put in my team. Life feels unfair at times like this, but I believe in action-reaction effect of the universe we live in. So I think one day, everything I’ve done now will not be a waste. On the top of that, what I worry the most is I might can’t stay awake in the class today and scolded by a teacher, or even worse, punished. Just what should I do? If I sleep now I might be late for school, this is definitely a checkmate condition where I have to sacrifice my own health by staying awake until the school is over. I just really hope that I won’t faint in the school today. Well, I might better stop overthinking of what I should do and just let it flow for now. I’ll let life flow just the way it is so that it would guide me.